I miss myself.

Is that even possible? Missing yourself. I mean, I'm right here.

I guess I mean that I miss the one I once was. It's just that that's silly aswell, if i misss the one i were, why don't i just go back to being that person.

I guess it's just insn't that easy. It's too bad really. too bad...

Why fat chicks should lose weight.

This may seem obvious to most some people but fat people are ugly. And since I don't care about fat guys, I'm not homosexual, I'm only adressing the fat chicks out there.

GIRLS, PUT DOWN THE FUCKING FORK!

It isn't hard to lose weight. All you need to do is stop stuffing your face with food. But some might reply "But Cray, I don't eat more than most other people." Most of them later revealing that they, in fact, don't. But they do however drink several gallons of soda per day. Just because something is liquid doesn't mean it isnt food. Soup is food and so is CocaCola(^tm)

So girls, if you ever want a chance to get laid with a decent guy that doesn't live out of a trailor, or is mentally retarded, lose some weight. It's that easy. Unless you're born ugly. Then all your hope is lost. Sorry.

I am drunk and going to clean my room and then cut my hair. It's has grown too long. I look like a hobo.

Re: resolve

I just realized when going thru my blog that the resolve i had was to quit smoking. Not stop eating junk food.

Well that failed miserably.

Mindmaps

Mindmaps sucks. I've never understood the use of them. What can a mindmap achive that normal listing can't? Excpet from confusing you and others who read them.

I always hated when we had to go thru them at school when you where forced to make them in some assigments. It's like saying "Here, that this list of facts, spread them out and put pretty colors to them so it get harder to read!" It's even worse if you have to cover some larger subject, putting stupid circles and lines, and run out of paper. What are you suppose to do then? Take a new paper and make really long lines? Tape two papers and tape them togheter? I, for one, do not go around carrying tape on me. Hell, I barely remembered to bring a pen to most of my classes. So what i end up doing is making smaller and smaller circles with smaller text. And the mind automatically thinks that smaller things are less important. When reviewing the text a couple of weeks later that's not really ideal. You go over the large circles you wrote first and then try to decipher the smaller ones until you give up and do some drugs and defaults to the learning book.

No, I've always though the best way to learn something is to list it, read it and then read it again. Preferably mixed with the aid of some ritalin.

Broken Resolve

I broke my resolve today. I hadn't eaten any junk food for a good time now. And I could really feel how Ii got healthier and skinnier. But today I met up with some friends and we decided to eat a pizza. I didn't even think about it before it was too late.

Now I have to compensate with counting calories and running like a freak. Bah.

Smoking

I've grown tired of smoking. So i'm quiting. Today. Ill try to write down my progress in here. Including any relapses. lol.

Ambition

I once read in a book something that reflects a though I've had in my mind for years, in all of my life in fact, that i just havn't been able to put to words. It was a simple sentence but its depth struck me so hard that i had to put down the book for a while. It was, translated from swedish, "Ambition is for errand boys and elevator operators." 

I've always considered ambition as something for those who can't enjoy the present. They're always so worried about the future that they can't see what's just infront of them. The now. It's always about the future, it's always about the straight A's and it's always about that "someday."

Someday they'll be rich and have a good job. Or something. I don't know. I just know that all those tomorrows until Someday will become yesterdays. A frightening alot of yesterdays without any real significance or importance.

Not saying that having some ambition is a bad thing. Just as long as they don't overwhelm you. 

It's not that bad being mediocre.

Nice day

Today was a nice day. I enjoyed it :)